Fred and George

I have a Fred and George. The first of the two rats was named George by my sister, after the Weasley twin from Harry Potter of course. Well George had been getting quite lonely in her massive cage, all on her lonesome. Even with my dad doting on her, hehehe. Anyway, when we were in Bathurst we decided it was a good time to get George a Fred. So we went to the pet shop out in Kelso, and asked if they had any female rats. "Of course" was the reply. Lovely. Then the woman tried to sell us a male rat. Hmm.


Anyway, long story short, some kids had been in earlier in the day and were playing with the rats. The young male was put in the female enclosure by one of them, without the shopkeepers noticing. Anyway, my first thought was "how does someone working in a pet shop NOT know how to tell the difference between a boy rat and a girl rat?" Then they offered us the oldest female. So my next thought was "well she's probably preggers again since the make was in there, and I don't want a pregnant rat". So we got a very young female, and we named her Fred.


Fred is very cute, and quite obnoxious. Poor George doesn't get a break with Fred running all around the cage, jumping on George, wrestling George, and so on. When George gets tired of Fred, she'll bite her and head as far away as she can. Then 10 minutes later you can walk past and see the two rats curled up together asleep, George with a front leg over the younger rat. It's been good for George to take on a mother role, especially considering she won't be able to have any baby rats of her own, what with the problems she has and all.


But George does seem much more lively and happy now, and Fred has most definately settled in.

pfft-ness

Emo Isti strikes again. I hate feeling like this, but yeah. I'm feeling insignificant. I'm realising some people aren't worth salvaging an old friendship with anymore, cos I'm the only one trying.


What a kick in the guts.


On a brighter note I guess, One Piece manga volumes 2 and 3 turned up. And I watched the season one first voyage dvds I got yesterday too. Very distracting, very nice.

the inner anime, manga and gēmu otaku

My no-procrastination streak ended. I was doing so well too, but I guess I might just need a bit of a break. Once I get this IT assessment item out of the way, I'll give myself a couple of days before I move onto the final programming assessment, then exam preparation.


I've decided to let go of my geekling ways, and embrace the inner otaku I truly am! By the way, otaku refers to to a fan of any particular theme, topic, or hobby. And thanks to the influences of Bazz and Jelbie in particular, I am now ready to acknowledge my anime, manga and video game fandoms. Just a heads up to you all seeing as that's the direction this blog will probably take in future!


Provided all goes well with my assignment this afternoon, I'm off to Stop n Rock in Bathurst to pick up my first lot of One Piece dvds, and I'm checking out the comic store there as well. I doubt they will give me better prices on manga than what I can get online, but it doesn't hurt to try. So yeah, thanks to Jelbie I'm a tad obsessed with One Piece so I'm hoping to get all the available dvds (Funimation, not 4kids) and manga I can. Living at home does have it's advantages so I can save the money for it.


After One Piece, I will start saving for other anime:

• The Wallflower (collections 1 &2)
  
• Ah! My Goddess (season 2)
  
• Escaflowne
• Chrono Crusade
• Cowboy Bebop
• Elfen Lied
• Midori Days

That's for starters anyway. I only plan on buying anime I know I can watch over and over, so no Naruto. I will save for the manga though. I think that list is more than enough to start saving for right now, it'll take awhile!


I also want to find out exactly when One Piece games are available on the Wii in Australia. They'd have to be better than the PS2 game with the 4kids voiceovers!


Cosplay is another hobby I want to get into. My ultimate costume would be Lulu from Final Fantasy X, but I think Hinata, Nami, or even Lucy (Mew) might be better beginner ones.


But yeah. I digress.


Procrastination. Isn't it wonderful?

seriously, what is going on?

My friends all seem to have kids, are getting married, and buying houses. When did everyone grow up? Where the hell was I? Puts my life in sharp perspective, that does. It makes me beg the questions: have I done the right thing? Have all my choices been bad ones? Have I set myself up for a life of failure and feeling incomplete?

*sigh*

I know the answer is that I have to do this my way, do what I need to and want to do. But still, I'm starting to get the feeling that I'm inadequate. Maybe I'm aiming too high, being too ambitious with my career aspirations? I don't know. No backing out now though. I'm sticking to my decisions. Even if they are the wrong ones.

motivation? meh

Alas, emo Isti has made an unexpected and wholly unwelcome return. I get so angry with myself for feeling so down, which of course only serves to perpetuate the problem.



Need to smile. Effort.



So unmotivated, haven't eaten, haven't even had a coffee, no study has been done today... and the day is half over. I have successfully wasted this morning unproductively, feeling a tad sorry for myself and unsure of why.



Seriously need to spur my sorry ass into gear and drag myself to my work PC. Clearly this blog post is a sorry attempt to keep my emo self preoccupied and avoid the real issue here. Yes, my circumstances suck, yes there's not much I can do about it, and yes I'm trying to deal with lots of personal crap, but that's no excuse for me to be all tense and melodramatic.



I need a life. And a hug.

just call me Giggles

So I got to FINALLY catch up with my friend Allen who I haven't seen in over 10 years now, and a seriously good time was had by all. I think my grandmother is smitten, hee hee.

Nothing beats an awesome pub meal, a few too many beers and some movies. And laughing at the obnoxiously loud St George supporter at the pub. Poor guy, everyone was ganging up on him, then his team went and lost.

I also realised over the course of the evening that I really can recite the dialogue from Aladdin word for word. A bit sad really, yet quite the accomplishment.

And I have been dubbed Giggles. Apparently I giggle a lot, and that was all Al was calling me the whole time he was here. I fix his computer for him, and he repays me by giving me a nickname. I told him that makes me sound like a really awfully named comic book villain, which only lead to more smartass comments from the both of us. Anyway, what can I say, I giggle when I'm happy and lately I've been very happy talking to Cowboy, and now getting to renew an old friendship. I have my protective big brother back!

I guess I can put up with "Giggles" for that.

The bear Cowboy sent me + Al's hat

Hardcore? Haha!

Another Potter fan

randomness and cupcakes

I've been slacking off a lot lately, I know. I've been a bit distracted and distant, and for this I apologise. Things are weighing heavily on my mind these days, so I ask you all to bear with me a little longer.

Firstly, living at home again isn't that great. I love my family here dearly of course, but the lack of freedom and to live my own lifestyle is really getting to me. I've been getting a bit depressed lately, and if it wasn't for my Cowboy (Texas) who I love dearly and occupies my mind almost non-stop, I'd be insane right now. Seriously. I'm in a town where I don't know anyone, the weather is miserable, and there is nothing to do... even if I did know anyone here.

The main reason I'm back here rather than in my own place somewhere else is that I can't afford it. I'm flat broke with bills to pay. I've been applying for work in Orange and Bathurst, and am widening the net to Dubbo and Wagga Wagga, possibly even Forbes... I'm desperate. I need to start earning money again and get my freaking independence back! And save for a trip overseas, to Texas hopefully. Not for a couple of years at best though.

The homecooked meals here are great, but there's only so much of the family lifestyle I can take before I crave being on my own and to be able to get that back I need money. I loathe money, I despise it. What a stupid concept. "Oh lets pretend that this paper/plastic/semi-precious metal is actually worth a set amount of value that we can exchange for goods and services". You know, if the barter system was still in play, there wouldn't be a global financial crisis! Dumb asses.

Ok, I'm just being silly now. I'm done ranting about money, heh.

I'm studying again, which should be great. Except it's getting harder and harder to stay motivated. I know that once it's all over I'll have fanfriggintastic job prospects, but I need to get through it first. Reminding myself to keep breathing.

I need to work out more. Must remember to work on that.

My Twitter obsession has actually been keeping me quite sane! Who would've thought. I've been tweeting to my hearts content about all manner of subjects: TV, gaming, webcomics, Cowboy, music, health... whatever pops into my mind while I'm sitting at a computer really. It's quite therapuetic, believe it or not. Sign up, and follow me! I'll give you cookies... well ok I can't really give you cookies, but I would if I could.

deviantART is providing me with an awesome distraction too. I've been getting into photography a little bit, and I'm convinced I need a proper, decent camera so I can stop using my camera phone (as awesome as the Sony Ericsson K850i is). I think I'll try some more photo manipulations to relax once I get a bit further into my study this term. And maybe some recolours, I need to work on my Photoshop skills a bit more.

Going to write more poems too. I'm deadly serious about that book, it's a lifelong dream of mine to have a book of my poetry published, so I will do it.

Driving lessons are getting there, slowly. Learning to drive in my own car is helping, I feel more relaxed knowing if I stuff up it's only my own vehicle I'm risking, no one elses. Hope to have my license by the time I can move out again. I really just need to work on my confidence behind the wheel.

You know, when I'm starting to feel overwhelmed and trapped by my circumstances, I remember the good people in my life. The main ones getting me through right now are my sis Amanda, my friends Jess, Jacinda, Allen, and Ben, and my wonderful man, Kyle. Even having little bits of contact with Corrie, Matty G, Bazz and Fliss helps too. And I can't thank any of them enough for being there for me.

Oh, and I lied about the cupcakes. Yes I know, I'm a bad woman. :P