Village Fair

It was a good day, I really went to see 28 Days and I was bitterly disappointed with their performance. They really put in no effort at all, like they couldn't be bothered. The band that was on before them, True Live, was absolutely amazing! Just a shame that Calisiris weren't playing this year, the were awesome last year!

Apart from a few minor incidences: the cold wind kicking up dust, and my own personal lack of alcohol, it was good fun.

Brad bought two cheapo light sabers, then while he and Tim were duelling the red one broke, so Brad went and got another one. Then Stu and I were full on duelling and the one I was using broke. Then Brad went and got ANOTHER one. Then last night before Brad and Bryan went back to Parkes, Bazz broke another one. I think that may have been fate's way of telling Brad he was only ever meant to own one light saber.

Lucinda rolled her ankle and landed hard on my toes, but I definately came out of that better than she did.

Bazz was pissed as a parrot, it was quite entertaining.

Sylvie and Stu were awesome company all day, and I had a few interesting chats with Edwina.

I ran into Willis, Chocco, Doyle, Vearing, Jess, Hannah, George, Tim and Andrew. I saw Luke and Dan, but didn't talk to them. Meh. All in all, the day was pretty good.

I am so brave!

I am, I got a tattoo and didn't even cry! You'll have to excuse my big bum in the pictures

this made me chuckle for awhile

Amy Lee and Will Boyd of Evanescence helping out creator of Destructo Video, Lenny. I love Will.

busy again

I'm breaking this cycle of sitting here doing not much while all my friends are so busy. So I'm bust for the next few days as well, so there!

Seriously though, I have an essay due Monday, a doctor's appointment Monday, coffee with Luke to sus out what he's really like on Monday, house inspection on Tuesday, tattoo appointment on Tuesday, another essay due Friday, then another one on the following Monday. Then my hair will turn a lovely shade of burgandy sometime during that week leading up to Village Fair.

Yay! I'm busy again!

meh

Man, I can't stop crying but I don't know what's wrong.

Actually, no I do, I'm lonely as all hell, all my friends are busy and have been for the last two weeks. I'm going insane, I'm not cut out to be a hermit.

regrets

I've been in a rather reflective mood lately, and it's making me a bit sad. A few years back now I was in a really good relationship but alas, I stuffed it up. And yes, it really was my fault. I wasn't completely honest with him, and then towards the end I didn't really trust him when clearly there was no need for distrust. Well, hindsight is 20/20 after all.

I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. I don't hear anything about him anymore, so I don't even know how he's doing. The last I saw of him he had moved on (which is a good thing, I was worried I'd screwed him up for life). I'm driving myself insane though, hoping he's doing ok, wondering what he's up to, blaming myself over and over and over for the way things turned out.

You'd think that seeing as I'm at the same uni as one of his brothers and his cousins I'd know something, but I don't like to ask. I mean, I like his brother and cousins so I don't want to dump all this on them.

Gah, what to do...

moved on?

At the risk of sounding all 'Sex and the City', I'm just going to rave a little about where my head is at as far as relationships are concerned.

I don't have a problem with relationships, most, actually pretty much all of my friends are in relationships, and they're happy. So that's good. Except when I'm out with my friends and I'm the only one there without a significant other, thats been happening a lot lately.

What really happens for a good relationship to get started? More to the point, what is supposed to happen when one ends? I personally thought I was well and truly over my major relationships, but lately I've been thinking of Ben a lot seeing as I run into his older brother and cousins at uni or out at the pubs all the time.

And the Bazz one, thats just weird. I thought that all my anger over what he said to me would cancel out any 'ambiguous' feelings I had about everything. But now, well I'm a bit miffed that he doesn't want to crash here with everyone for Village Fair after contacting me about when its on, etc. Is that weird? It probably is. I shouldn't even care after everything. What is going on with me???

It's really bugging me, I want to move on, find someone I like who genuinely likes me back. But for some reason I keep sabotaging myself and any chance I have at finding someone like that.