regrets

I've been in a rather reflective mood lately, and it's making me a bit sad. A few years back now I was in a really good relationship but alas, I stuffed it up. And yes, it really was my fault. I wasn't completely honest with him, and then towards the end I didn't really trust him when clearly there was no need for distrust. Well, hindsight is 20/20 after all.

I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. I don't hear anything about him anymore, so I don't even know how he's doing. The last I saw of him he had moved on (which is a good thing, I was worried I'd screwed him up for life). I'm driving myself insane though, hoping he's doing ok, wondering what he's up to, blaming myself over and over and over for the way things turned out.

You'd think that seeing as I'm at the same uni as one of his brothers and his cousins I'd know something, but I don't like to ask. I mean, I like his brother and cousins so I don't want to dump all this on them.

Gah, what to do...