It's amazing, that it only take sone person being sweet and caring to make you feel blissful, even though life might be crap. I love this feeling and I hope it lasts *wink wink nudge nudge* (you know who you are).

So now my sister has found out I'm going to my first BnS with a couple of mates, she's decided to take it upon herself to convert me to "country". You know, country music, RM Williams, utes, the whole shebang. I told her as long as I get to keep my unique cuts/colours, then I really don't care what she tries. And do you know what the cheeky lil' brat (who I love dearly) said? "Well I s'pose I can make one concession". When we live together, she is going to take me in hand lol. She also said that Bathurst probably can't handle the two of us out and about on the town at once. Hehe, she's probably right, when we get together we're just crazy.

Wow, I'm feeling happy right now! Thankyou very much Cowboy! And Cozza, I miss you! Ann-funky-green-chicken-turkey-person, we need to catch up again, and Fliss, you are my muse lately, love ya! And everyone else too, love you all. Love it when life seems sweet.

Ticked Off

*sigh* why is it that I can't do anything right by anyone? I'm confused, hurt and angry. I'm stuck in a town with no friends. I'm broke. I'm stressed about uni.

Can someone recommend a nice rock for me to crawl under? Thanks

I shall name him Fred

Ugh, so sick today, hopefully I can shake it off quickly and get back into uni work, got two assignments due within a week.

I've decided I need to get myself a teddy bear. I miss cuddles, and even though a teddy can't give cuddles back, at least I can give it cuddles!

I went on a photogrphy spree yesterday, I might post some pics when I feel a bit better.

Ciao lovelies!

the unanswerable question...

Why do I let myself be such an idiot? Lol seriously, I need to think things through more before I open my mouth.

it's the fear

I'm worried I'm turning into a bitter hag, wary of getting close to anyone again. I must not let myself get that way!

nice girls finish last, same with the guys

Some not-so-bright ones just don't get it do they? People don't like being used, and they don't take kindly to being rudely dismissed either. Really, who would? Treat people with respect and they'll often show you the same courtesy.

So what is it with society that makes some people think it's ok to treat other people so badly? And these people get away with it, because they are usually mistreating nice people, people too nice to speak up and say something in case someone will get offended. It's rubbish that this is ok!

I know so many people who are too quiet and scared of hurting anyone that they get walked all over, all the time. These good people end up doubting themselves and feeling hurt and rejected. What good does hurting a genuinely nice person do? Does it make them feel big? Tough? I'd laugh if it didn't make me feel like crying instead.

I've been getting so angry about this kind of thing lately, because it doesn't just happen to me. Yes I am obviously sick of it happening to me, but I really hate seeing my friends being taken advantage of as well. There is so much other crap going on in the world, so why the hell can't we all just be nice to each other, and treat each other with respect and honesty?

/rant.

woop woop

All is well in Skybie Land today. Happy sparkly rainbows and butterflies and so on.

I powered into my programming assignment today, and the coding will be done tomorrow. It's not due till Friday, so I'm ahead, and loving it. Yay for me! I'm going to take that as an indicator for the rest of the year. No I am not deluding myself, it helps to set goals =)

I guess it helps when the assignment is very very basic stuff you've already learned... but still, go me! Hee hee...

And Dan, the answer to your question is a most emphatic NO. Hopefully you read this sooner rather than later so you know what I'm talking about!

yayness, happy fun update!

So I'm all moved and settled into my caravan at dad/grandparent's place, thanks to everyone who asked how it went. Love you guys! I miss my sister, Cozza, Dan and Jay already though *tear*

Isti has a car! Now all I need to do is learn how to drive it, hehe. Thanks dad!

And on the fun-times front, September looks like it could shape up to be pretty decent. It's Uncle Geoffrey's wedding, so it should be awesome. I even have a date already (cheers Al), and knowing my uncles it'll be one heck of a party. I need to save for a dress though... hoping to have slimmed down a bit more before then. I love having something to look forward to.

My pet rat is doing ok. George has bad hind legs, a hereditary thing apparently. She's not in any pain thank goodness, and she's still really active. She loves curling up in dad's pocket, and eating grapes. I'm looking forward to hoodie weather now, I reckon she'd love that! When I get some really awesome pics of her I'll post them. Oh and Puff the Fishy is doing great too.

Amanda is moving to Bathurst after she's graduated, so we'll look for a place there together. I'll have to stick it out with the fam till then. Lovely home-cooked meals? I think I can handle that, even if I have to dry dishes the whole time! Anyway, sis plans to study at tafe and work at one of the aged care places in Bathurst. It will be glorious.

Wow, this was a longer update than I planned. I need to get on with uni stuff. Ciao lovelies!

so angry and hurt

You know what? I've come to realise that most people really do treat me like a doormat, and like I'm the least important person they know. My feelings don't matter, my thoughts don't count, and I may as well be invisible.

You know what I have to say to these people? I am better than that.

That's right, I'm better than being everyone's "backup friend", the one they go to cos no one else is available. I'm better than being used, abused and tossed aside. I'm sick of the crap, I'm sick of feeling like this and I'm damn well sick of two faced idiots.

My true friends know who they are, because they have never once ignored me, never once made me feel insignificant and alone. They treat me with respect, would never dream of using me or hurting me, and actually like me for me. I love these people dearly and will always cherish them. I could never toss them aside like they don't matter, because to me they do.

So screw those of you that pretend to be my friend, I'm done with always being the nice girl. Only my real friends and other genuine people get to see that me anymore.