bored

I really think we should get another laser tag expedition organised...I really think I'm having withdrawals! If Corrie, Ross or Dan read this, invite anyone who seems interested, everyone can crash at mine. I'm just so bored, and really want to get out and DO something relatively active.

Let me know guys!

just an update

Nothing new is going on. I have heaps of uni stuff to be getting on with, but I just can't get motivated at the moment, and I'm feeling lonely too because I only have my weird buddy to really talk to at the moment.

So yeah. My life is boring.

isolation

I've somehow gotten so cut off from from everybody. I didn't realise it till now. I honestly hate living here, away from everyone that I care about (minus my weird buddy, who I can't be around all the time). I never know how anyone is doing, what they're up to, if they're happy...I don't know anything about them anymore! Even my family are so cut off from me.

All the people I care about might as well be strangers to me now. It really makes me feel sad.

realisation

It has suddenly occured to me how weird I really am!

A big shout out to Ann who will probably never read this, my weird buddy, we're on the same wavelength and I'm loving it chicken!

yo-yo

Oh man, I apologise for my blog, my emotions and thoughts have been up and down like a yo-yo for the last few weeks!

isn't someone missing me?

I'm really starting to miss hanging out with everyone! I miss Corrie and Ross, I miss Dan, I miss Jelbie, I miss Jay, I miss Bart and Tracy, I miss Amanda C and my sister Amanda, I even miss bloody Bazz! It's times like these I need a license, a car and money for fuel. As well as a place to crash where I can visit them!

Cozza and I are trying to get a laser tag outing together, but I honestly think that no one will have the time or money to come over. And I was so hoping we could get Jelbie over here and shoot him lots and lots with funny little laser guns before he jets off overseas! Oh well, we'll see what we can do anyway.

P.S. Hi Amanda!

lessons are being learned

Well, I've had a really rocky past two weeks, and I'm a little worse for wear, but at least I have some good friends standing by me. I know I can be annoying at times, so I'm grateful to them that they don't think I am very much, or at all.

A few things have happened to make me question myself: do I really have any friends, am I all alone cos people hate me, are all the decisions I make in my life bad ones?

But then I talked it out, and I've come to a very simple conclusion: what one or two people say isn't always the opinion of others. I shouldn't be doubting myself because someone makes me feel worthless. Because I'm not worthless, no human being is. That kind of attitude is a waste of energy, which is something I have wasted a lot of lately, mainly on stressing about uni.

Speaking of uni...I don't know what I'm doing next year. I want to apply with NOVAgroup to teach in English in Japan next year, but most of my family are trying to talk me out of it, even though I haven't even convinced myself yet! We'll see what happens. A lot could change between now and when I graduate.

So thats the update on me. I'm sick of being the doormat that people can put down and use. Thats over now. Yay for me, it took me awhile!

me

Monkeys are green, live in Britain, and love heavy metal.

I should be a monkey! At least they don't seemed to be depressed all the time

procrastinating

While I have a break from the stupidest assignment I've had so far this year, I'll write up the results for laser tag both that random Thursday, and on Sunday with Bazz, Ross and Dan.

Random Thursday
I played as Anita Blake
Yellow Team
Ranked 2 of 4
Shots fired: 162
Accuracy: 27%
Tagged players: 36
Tagged by players: 29
Bases hit: 2
Total score: 7,833
I hit Bob 1 on front, 1 on back, 2 on shoulders and 3 on laser gun
I hit my cousin 4 on front, 1 on back, 2 on shoulders and 1 on gun
I hit poor Lucinda 12 on front, 2 on back, 3 on shoulders and 4 on gun.

Sunday Game 1
I played as my member alias, Istimiel
Blue Team with Ross, Dan and Bazz
Ranked 7 of 9
Shots fired: 59
Accuracy: 56%
Tagged players: 27
Tagged by players: 47
Bases hit: 1
Total score: 3,722
I didn't hit the guys, and I TRIED to hit the yellow team, but they were obviously training for team competition. They were like a trained army unit or something!

Sunday Game 2
I played as Istimiel
I played Yellow Team by myself, Ross and the others were Blue Team, and three Games Tech looking guys were Red Team
Ranked 2 of 7
Shots fired: 259
Accuracy: 20%
Tagged players: 46
Tagged by players: 33
Bases hit: 2
Total score: 7, 569
I hit Bazz 4 on front, 1 on back, 3 on shoulders and 1 on gun
I hit Ross 2 on front, 3 on back, 5 on shoulders and 3 on gun
I hit Dan 1 on front, 1 on back, 2 on shoulders and 2 on gun
Bazz ranked 5, Ross ranked 6 and Dan ranked 3.

Sunday Game 3
I played as Istimiel again
I was on Yellow Team, joined by two of the random Games Tech guys (one had left) and Bazz and Co. were Blue Team. There was a Red sniper in with us too
Ranked 2 of 7
Shots fired: 185
Accuracy: 26%
Tagged players: 41
Tagged by players: 38
Bases hit: 2
Total score: 7, 818
The sniper (who wasn't Bob) was ranked 1, I hit him 2 on front, 2 on back, 7 on shoulders and none on the gun. He hit me heaps.
I hit Bazz 4 on front, 2 on back, 2 on shoulders and 1 on gun
I hit Dan 4 on front, 1 on back, 1 on shoulders and none on gun
I hit Ross 8 on front, none on back, 4 on shoulders and 3 on gun
Ross took up a sniper position and stayed there! He still ranked 3.
Bazz ranked 7 and Dan ranked 6.


Aren't you so proud of me? When the army team left, I kicked the boys bums! We were so hopeless against those guys, I hardly had a chance to turn around before I was hit again!

random quizzes

Which Beautiful Vampiress are you?

The Haunted One

You are the haunted beauty whose life is marred by sadness. You are dreamy, delicate, gentle and melancholy. As tragically beautiful as any Shakespearean heroine, you possess a doe-eyed fragility that is strangely enchanting.

What's so scary about you: There is something rather unsettling about your fragile beauty. You are like a dream that no one can grasp.

Your gemstone: Moonstone
Your Moon: Ice Moon (January)

What sort of elemental girl are you?

Your Element is Darkness. You are the most shy and myserious out of all the elements. Darkness can appear as shadows. It can conquer over Earth. It usually attacks by making huge shadows or deep black holes.

Your power colour is: Grey

What Band Would Love To Have You?

Lacuna Coil

being strange is normal

Let's explore this concept shall we. I have been told on numerous occasions by various people that I am very strange. However, my friends have also been told the same thing!

So, if majority of the people are strange, that would make being strange the norm. Therefore being strange is in fact normal.

For the sake of engaging in circular logic, this brings me to another point. If being strange is normal, what is strange really? Normalcy and strangeness are polar opposites! So once strangeness is normal, it is no longer strange. Then we find something else that's weird or "strange" and start all over again.

Thankyou for taking the time to read my pointless argument, I hope you found it both entertaining and educational.