Well, I've had a really rocky past two weeks, and I'm a little worse for wear, but at least I have some good friends standing by me. I know I can be annoying at times, so I'm grateful to them that they don't think I am very much, or at all.
A few things have happened to make me question myself: do I really have any friends, am I all alone cos people hate me, are all the decisions I make in my life bad ones?
But then I talked it out, and I've come to a very simple conclusion: what one or two people say isn't always the opinion of others. I shouldn't be doubting myself because someone makes me feel worthless. Because I'm not worthless, no human being is. That kind of attitude is a waste of energy, which is something I have wasted a lot of lately, mainly on stressing about uni.
Speaking of uni...I don't know what I'm doing next year. I want to apply with NOVAgroup to teach in English in Japan next year, but most of my family are trying to talk me out of it, even though I haven't even convinced myself yet! We'll see what happens. A lot could change between now and when I graduate.
So thats the update on me. I'm sick of being the doormat that people can put down and use. Thats over now. Yay for me, it took me awhile!
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