stress, ew

I think I've pinpointed why I feel so stressed all the time (or at least narrowed it down a little), I've noticed that I have very little control of any aspect of my life. Uni stress is normal, granted, but I feel I have no control career-wise, I have no control over my own social life, and I certainly have no control over the psycho kitten I've unleashed on our household.

Whoever said that pets help alleviate stress have clearly not met Schröddy.

I've also noticed that whenever people around me seem stressed, I pick up on it and start feeling stressed and anxious myself. As a result, these past few weeks have been hell, and I'm needing a decent night's sleep after a long soak in a hot bath. If the hot water situation at the house gets sorted out. A lack of a support network, a lack of free time, a severe lack of mates to hang out with and very little money means the stress is increased.

Oh, and there's the whole needing to learn how to drive manual. It's not as if I don't understand why I need to, but with how tight finances are I can't afford driving lessons as frequently as I need to practice. I've already told my violin teacher I can't have lessons as frequently anymore. If I owned a manual vehicle, things would be great cos I could practice, but yeah... finances. All work vehicles are manual which I currently cannot drive, so there would be absolutely no opportunity for career advancement. Gah, stressing about that more now.

I honestly can't think of how to calm down and stop worrying so much. I wish I could have an "I don't give a fuck" attitude, but that's not me. There's a reason people tell me all their problems or tell me what I need to do, even if it makes how I'm feeling worse (not that they realise it). I'm pretty sure I'll end up burning out and making myself sick if I don't figure it all out soon which will be incredibly difficult considering the whole lack of control thing. Fingers crossed I can. It's not likely to happen till at least after exams though.