artistic mood

Photomanipulations

I've been playing around with Photoshop for ages, but I never really had the hang of it till recently. I've been trying different tricks and techniques, and hopefully it has paid off.

Vampire Morning by Istimiel

Breathe by Istimiel

Tsukiko Amano

I'm falling for j-rock princess Tsukiko Amano, just as she's about to call it quits for her solo career. This woman can sing, she's a real muso, and her videos are quite aesthetically pleasing. If you know of any Japanese artists similar to her, please comment and let me know.

shrinking

I've been looking through heaps of old photos from the last few years, and I am so very happy to say that compared to this time last year and the year before that, I look good. I am losing weight, slowly but steadily. Looks like that New Year's resolution will happen!

It's a massive confidence boost for me, I've been feeling "frumpy" for far too long. I know it's my own fault that I put the weight on in the first place, but I also know that it's going to be all me that gets rid of it. Well, with a little motivational help from Kyle, when he gets here we'll be working out together. Nothing like having someone else to help push you forward.

Besides that aspect of it all, I'm really glad I'm getting healthier. One day I hope to settle down and have a family, and being the way I am now, well... what kind of support could I really provide being so unfit and unhealthy? If I start now, I'll be back on track for whenever the time comes.

I've also been noticing a dramatic improvement in my mood (with the obvious exception that afflicts most women). I've had people in the past tell me that being depressed was my own fault, that I should be able to just "get over it", and left me to deal with it on my own. Well I have. Thanks to all that I am a much stronger person than I was, more ready to deal with the world and all the crap it puts us all through. Obviously I can't be chirpy ALL the time, I don't expect I can be. But the difference is definately noticable. I am me again.

Well, except for when it comes to people who make a joke of depression or don't take it seriously, then I get really mad which is totally out of character for me.

Eating healthier and exercising, and being around positive people has been good for me though, physically and mentally. I do miss a lot of good people in my life, distance can be a bitch.

But my waist line is slowly shrinking, yay!