Cancelled

Gulgong is cancelled due to licensing laws. What the hell. I was going to see Allen, Jacinda, AJ and even my cousin Rik there. Grr.

My sister moving in with me... cancelled, as far as mum's concerned. She doesn't think it will happen and isn't really being very supportive of the idea. Dammit.

Cowboy, you'd better not cancel! Hehehe, no pressure.

le sigh

Jobsearching is such a massive pain in the posterior, especially when living in a small town like Blayney. Hopefully I can find employment in Bathurst or somewhere similar, soon. Before I go completely insane. I spent the better part of last night and some of today filling out applications, touching up my resume and typing up cover letters. Not fun.

The lack of privacy and having to be available to my family at their every whim is starting to take it's toll on me. I need a break. Bring on the BnS and a job!

funny business?

We might have to scratch moving out with my sister off the "good stuff" list, grrr. If that doesn't get sorted, I will look for someone else to move in with in Bathurst. Damn yesterday was just not my day.

I wanted to do something to cheer myself up, and I thought a little online retail therapy might help... then I realised I have no money now. So I thought, "hey, I have a 12 pk of Bounty chocolate bars, that sounds delicious"... but then I realised that putting all that weight back on would make me more depressed. So I talked to people instead. Cheers Raoul, Ian and Cowboy, you guys cheered me up big time, hehe. Funny buggers.

To end on a positive note, went driving today, and actually liked it. So yes, miracles can happen.

Riiiiight

Thank god I have a few things to look forward to, like...

• Gulgong BnS
• Uncle Geoffrey's wedding
• moving out with Amanda
• meeting Cowboy
• possibly publishing a book
• learning guitar

... otherwise I would seriously have lost it. It's good to have a few positive things to keep the negative thought spiral at bay.

It might take me a little longer than I'd hoped to be able to get this book done due to finances, but it looks promising either way. The tally so far:

For publishing: 5
Against: 0

Still needing more feedback :)

I need YOU

That's right, I am needing your help!

I've had an idea stuck in my head for a long time, about a year and a half now, and that idea is to publish a book of my poems, past, recent and future. Do you think this would be an ok idea? Tell my why, or why not! I know it's ambitious, but the idea won't leave me alone.

If enough people agree with me, I'll then be on the lookout for a cover artist .