poems

DAUGHTER OF WISDOM

I catch myself on rusty nails
And tear myself to shreads.
Overanalysing the parts
So I'll never self-actualise.

I loathe my copper heart,
Green with envy,
Seeing life all around except within.
I can't steal a shard of happiness
For the crystal teardrops you shed.

My sober thoughts long to hide
In a mix of ethanol and colour,
To wipe away the rust,
To cleanse my copper heart
The way crystal tears of sympathy should.
The rusty nails tearing at me
Strip away the mask of strength.
Desire to be stronger, alive.
I can't be this porcelain doll anymore.


DEAR SISTER

My eternal princess of joy,
Never loosen your grip on me.
My black velvet days
Have turned to pure golden light
Just by the sweetness
Behind your azure stare.
Brighid! Help me protect that light!

I need to keep you safe,
Let no one hurt my Fae of Light.
The agony of lives lived apart
Grows with every drop pf pain
That ripples in your youthful eyes.

My best friend, my princess,
Stength immeasurable is bestowed upon you,
But should you fall
Please, take the little stregth I own.
Then we will always be bound together,
My sister.

at a bad place

I'm definately not in the best headspace at the moment. The anniversaries of some sad and awful events in my life are coming up, and so many things are reminding me of them. I feel very alone and incredibly tired, it's all too much to deal with but I don't know how to get away from it all. I need a break from everything, but I have no idea how I can do that seeing as I'm so broke.

Also, I tried opening up to someone about the issues that are making me feel like this, but she was the wrong person to talk to. Everyone has their own views on things, but her view doesn't really help me right now, and its not something I can talk to many people about.

I really don't want to feel like this, it makes me such a sad and boring person. I can't wait to find a solution if I can.

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Your Fairy Tale

Once upon a time there has a young STUDENT named GANNO. He was FILMING NOTHING in the EERIE forest when he met MYSTERIOUS ROSS, a run-away HYPNOTIST from the SEXY Queen SKYE.

GANNO could see that MYSTERIOUS ROSS was hungry so he reached into his BACKPACK and give him his GORGEOUS PIZZA. MYSTERIOUS ROSS was thankful for GANNO's PIZZA, so he told GANNO a very GREEN story about Queen SKYE's daughter CORRIE. How her mother, the SEXY Queen SKYE, kept her locked away in a HUT protected by a gigantic OWL, because CORRIE was so MEAN.

GANNO SANG. He vowed to MYSTERIOUS ROSS the HYPNOTIST that he would save the MEAN CORRIE. He would RUB the OWL, and take CORRIE far away from her eveil mother, the SEXY Queen SKYE, and SAVE her.
Then, all of the sudden, there was a LAME FLOOD and MYSTERIOUS ROSS the HYPNOTIST began to laugh. With a puff of smoke he turned into the gigantic OWL from his story. SEXY Queen SKYE WATCHED out from behind a PENCIL and struck GANNO dead. In the far off HUT you could hear a MOO.

some more random chit chat

I have figured out that I thrive on affection. This explains why single life really isn't suiting me at the moment!

Exam tomorrow, I should be more worried considering how unprepared I am. I have to write four essays in two hours, no notes or books allowed. Meh.

Nine days till I get to see my sister! I haven't seen her since we bundled her off to boarding school in February.

Cozza is awesome.

my adorable little blister - I mean sister

Yay! Amanda is coming to stay with me for a whole week of her school holidays, starting around the 29th June!

I'm trying to get a gang together to go laser tagging on the Saturday (July 1st) seeing as my sister has never been before. Dan already said he's coming, as did FM.

Anyway, I have to rework my budget, I'm paying off a PS2/Singstar bundle at Big W, so I won't have as much spending dosh as I would otherwise.

Yes, I am a Singstar addict! I scored over 9700 for The Offspring - Self Esteem. We'll conveniently forget we were playing in easy mode.

random scribblings...

I hate the moonlight,
Reminding me that I'm
Trapped in my nightmares
That I myself created,
Built on jaded memories.

I can't take the anger any more,
The hurt is killing my awareness.
Voices all sound the same,
I can't see for the darkness before my eyes.

Do not reach out to touch me,
I'll taint you with desperation and hopelessness.

guilty little pleasures

Well yesterday was fun, but I feel guilty that I wasn't studying. At least I wasn't in Parkes at the rainy races!

I went round to Ganno's, and we had drinkies from about 1pm till 10pm. In that time we also watched a bit of soccer stuff on SBS, I kicked his ass at Tekken 5 (22 wins to 6) and we played Singstar Rock. I kicked his butt in Singstar as well, but he does have a really bad cold, so if he wants a rematch I'll happily oblige. Actually, I've become a Singstar addict!

I was going to head out to the pubs with Ganno that night, but I started feeling way too guilty about not studying. So yeah. It was so much fun though!

exams

Well, it's that time again...I have an exam on Tuesday morning for statistics. I'm not at all confident, I just can't wait till its over! Then I wait till the Thursday the following week for my other exam. Then I'm free as a bird for four weeks!

back to good

Ok, I have settled back down to my normal self with some help from Ann and G-No. I'm still incredibly angry and annoyed, but I've got my temper under control a bit better now.



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